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today have already entered the fourth day of my study life here in BETA year.. the last semester for BETA..

this first week of returning to studies.. was.. very bored..

never in my foundation year.. the short semester was this bored.. my classes was cancelled like no body business..

it was quite bored.. so.. the weekends also.. i guess will be stuck at home.. doing nothing.. but then.. studies.. need to revise gua.. since.. the short semester is only 8 weeks which is kinda short..

gambateh…

my horoscope for the week.. taken from The Star newspaper.. not that i am those that really believe 100% in it.. but i find it… quite true…

When Capricorn tire of being taken for a granted, the rest of us had better show due respect. Culprits most under threat are close partners who have been pushing one personal button too many. This isn’t so much of make-or-break week. Well, not unless you’re really provoked.

i’m in my consider second week of holidays already.. i hated it.. hanging out with mei yee.. was enjoyable.. the japanese buffet…

but the rest of the week.. i really dont know what to say.. am so worried, so tired… i am starting to hate myself so much…

i really dont know how to describe all this feelings.. i just hate it.. it is all not under my own control.. stuff which i cant control.. i hate it..

it have been sometime since i last wrote.. reasons?? busy busy busy… plus, am using another blog..

today, at 9am.. will be having my second paper.. maths technique.. hiahzzz..

still have four more after this… terrible.. cant wait for it to just end..

i dont want to take exams liao.. but still have another 2 years of exams to go.. hiahzz..

wow.. new layout for the friendster blog…

not bad.. kinda nice.. but it will take me some time to get use to it.. hahahaha… well, quite some time i did not blog here.. am very busy… with assignments.. all the assignments need to be handed in this week and next.. all last minute work… am not so worry about it except for one assignment.. computer programming.. it sucks badly… i really dont know what to do about it..

am just hoping that i would pass this subject during the finals… and maths technique as well.. i settled my maths technique assignment already… kinda.. only lefted a few questions which i really dont know how to do.. later need to ask friends..

actually the reason am blogging is.. i realised that i had grown thinner.. lose weight… erm.. nothing to be proud of actually.. i gained weight while i was working and now i lose them back… but then.. the one that triggered me to blog is my fingers.. usually when i aligned my fingers together.. it seems to fit and there are not much or obvious gabs between each finger.. but now.. when i aligned them.. the gabs are quite big now….

erm… wonder what my dad will say when he sees me when i get back home..

am getting really stressed up already…
am going crazy…
now am in week 11?? yeah.. bloody week 11..
all of the assignments need to be handed-in in week 13.. that is less than two weeks.. since now already is wednesday..
and none of the assignments i have really started with it..
anatomy and biochemistry assignments havent even been given out yet by the lecturer…
computer programming assignment… this is the one that really make me so worry… am so scare.. did badly in the lab test already.. have another lab test in week 14.. i know that i am gonna screw that lab test again…
it is really scary… i am having a biochemistry paper this friday.. i need to start studying.. but my mind.. it is all clogged up with all the worries i have for the assignments.. making me unable to concentrate my mind into studying..
i really dont know what to do to undo the stress… who can i turn to??
HELP… this is really scary.. i really need to study for the biochemistry as i dont want to screw this paper as well…
all i know.. this semester… it is the worst semester that i ever had.. for the time being… it is so scary.. so bad..
i cant.. and dont want to emo to the one i loved… it will be so unfair..
please, LORD… help me.. show me the way…

it was a disastrous midterm for me..
none of the questions i can do.. only four questions… none of them i can finish the whole coding.. i also dont know what to do..
have been in a kind of bad mood two days before the midterm..
emo-ing on a certain someone.. i felt so bad after that.. so sorry..
anyway.. after the midterm.. went out to watched WALL-E… a very nice movie.. recommended.. MUST WATCH.. seriously nice…
watching the movie already.. came back so damn tired.. went to bed.. but wake up at 4++ in the morning to settle all the tutorials..
hopefully maths technique midterm on monday.. things will be much easier on me..
PLEASE….
biochemistry midterm next friday as well… hopefully it will be okay too…
so scary.. two quizzes as well next week.. hiahzz..
one word to sum everything…
DISASTROUS….

hiahzz.. was in a bad mood suddenly…
was it because of the midterm that i had just now..
computer programming II…
damn subject..
hiahzz…

am worried.. there are two subjects that are so SCARY…
computer programming and maths technique…
i just hope that i can really pass these two subjects…
PLEASE…..

now i am in the middle of midterm break.. 1 week of midterm break.. and thursday is already here… will be going back on sunday…
these few days, nothing much.. because need to study for the midterm tests next week.. three midterm papers… haihzz…..
troublesome..
besides that, i did meet up with H in town for a movie and lunch…
and she made me promise that we will hang out again somewhere in december… for a shopping spree.. hahaahha…
well, now that i remember clearly… in december, it is my short semester… i am not sure when i will be back… but, if the shopping spree can wait.. means we have to do the shopping after my finals… hahhahaa..
plus, i dont understand.. usually, one week of holiday.. it will just fly pass very fast.. but this one week, seems to go at a very slow pace.. i wonder why…

Just because a couple of your recent hunches were slightly off the mark
doesn’t mean that your intuitive skills have bitten the dust! Don’t
lose confidence in your gut today, because it will help you steer clear
of some unpleasant people. Listen when that little voice says ‘don’t
trust this person.’ You are an excellent judge of character, and you
will have an especially good eye for seeing through the charm someone
is working so hard to convey to you.

erm.. hopefully it is true about "you are an excellent judge of character, and you will have an especially good eye for seeing through the charm someone is working so hard to convery to you."

and hopefully as well.. i can get an answer for myself regarding certain matters… as i dont want to hurt anyone.. the longer i take to find out the answer.. the more unfair it is going to be especially to the other party.. i dont want to use the other party.. it wont be fair..

You can’t control how other people perceive you. You can control how
you present yourself. These are two very different things. People
assess things based on their own prejudices and preconceptions, so if
they don’t respond to your presentation or speech the way you had
hoped, you can’t take it personally! You did your best — you gave them
the message, and they misinterpreted it. Ask them questions to keep the
conversation going and clarify your perspective.

i am so tired.. just got back from cyberjaya.. meeting there with CF and CSS regarding the combination of the society under one umbrella.. i only had 3 hours of sleep.. well, 3 hours of sleep is very little for me.. insufficient for me.. still i only slept for 3 hours.. now having mild headache already..

regarding my horoscope.. well, i have nothing much to say.. but i guess the first few lines summarised all of it la.. if you know me well enough… i guess most of you all know what it means.. i dont need to interpret.. if not, it means you dont know me well..

tomorrow.. another early morning… hiahzz.. i want to be glued to the bed forever la.. is it possible? i just want to sleep… :p